Can I Do This?

That's the question I asked myself Wednesday morning after waking up tired. Before I woke up, I was dreaming I was getting ready to go to sleep after a long night helping my best friend from high school rescue her child from a werewolf kidnapper. It turns out he only wanted to celebrate Christmas with us. I don’t really care what that dream means. I just wish I would remember those insightful dreams that leave me with thought provoking solutions that I usually forget 30 seconds after I’m awake. I know I'm supposed to write these down, but that would be WORK.

Speaking of work... (Call me Queen Segue) I started a part time job doing bookkeeping services for a local business. I haven't worked steadily for 2 years. I had grown accustomed to showering late mornings after my coffee and work out. Since July 1st, It's get up, shower, get dressed, have breakfast and get to work. I am enjoying my new job. The people are great and I am learning so much related to bookkeeping.

On the surface, it's great, but I have a concern lurking in my mind regarding my commitment to my new responsibility. It is only part time. My employer is very willing to be flexible with my schedule regarding doctor's appointments. He must be very willing to work with me because on my 3rd day I had to call in sick. Two years ago, I practically worked myself to death, but I did own my own business and have a failing marriage. Now I'm working part time for someone else and have a very happy and fulfilling personal life. My goal is to find balance. Changing my thinking of finding balance instead of just, "Can I do this?" reminded me quitting is not the answer. If I don't try, I've already failed. So I'm giving it a go.

So far, I have been pretty tired. Fatigue has been hitting me hard. I don't want to give up yet because it is still early and maybe my body needs to adjust. I will be working 4 days. I am thinking of changing my day off to Thursday, so I can take it easy and finish off the week with enough energy to enjoy my weekend. Plus, with the extra income I will be able to afford regular massages and pedicures. Massages and pedicures may sound a bit indulgent, but I have found a great deal of pain relief with regular visits to my massage therapist. A pedicure once a month helps my circulation and the massage also helps with foot pain. The more I think about it, the more I feel I’m making the right decision. Again, it is early and I need to give myself time to balance between my health and work. I know balance is possible and necessary to succeed; I just need to find it.

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